Trust without borders

Starting this blog was the beautiful part. Continuing with it has been the disaster. Life has been a whirlwind the past few weeks and my heart shakes when I think of how quickly time is passing by. October seemed so far away and now it feels like it could be tomorrow. I spent so many years, months, weeks, and  days wishing time away hoping for tomorrow and now I’m asking God to slow it down. I don’t know if I’m ready.

But in that fear of the unknown is such beauty. The fearful beauty of the unknown. It takes the pressure off what I can or cannot do and leaves it in His strong and capable hands.

 

I’m free falling right now. As I see page after page turn in this chapter of my life I can this brand new chapter coming closer…quickly.

 Excited? Of course! Scared? Oh YES! It’s so funny how the Lord works and I see His hand moving even in the most intricate details of my day. When I started this process I was expecting beautiful disasters similar to milestones along my journey, but now I’m realizing when I asked Him to slow down time, He did, but in a different way. He slowed down my time, my focus and attention. Each and every moment of every day He is showing me Himself and teaching me new things, and I hope to continue reveling in the little things so I don’t miss the big picture.

 

This journey is not a destination for me it’s only the beginning and the last 26 years of my life have been preparing for this moment. I don’t know where it will end up or where it will take me but I’m learning to trust Him with every step.

 

The song Oceans by Hillsong United speaks perfectly to where I am. One particular part says “lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the water wherever you will call me…” He is pushing me into a place where my trust has no end, no borders it will grow and swell in the depth of the unknown, because everything I know and have known will stay here and I will be moving forward with only my trust in Him to lead me.
 

Trust. Now that’s a beautiful disaster. The beauty is knowing that it’s not up to me to make things happen I simply must trust. However, it’s disastrous to my comfort zone and what I’m used to because trust knocks down every wall and forces me to walk wherever He may call me.  

 

Trust without borders…what a beautiful disaster.
Psalm 56:3- “But when I am afraid, I will put my trust in You”